Meanwhile, I'm feeling progressively more left out of the loop--as well I should be. It's an emotional thing and not a problem, just Feeling.
I admit to the same feelings when I set about retiring several months ago, only to end up as interim associate dean for a few months. At that time, I passed my teaching domaine--class, lectures, files, everything--on to the faculty member assigned to take my classes. We made a ceremony of moving a bunch of files from my office to hers. During the summer, even though I was immersed in a new role, I keenly missed teaching and my beginning students. I still do. The difference in my relationship with our beginners is much different now than when I stood in front of their classroom.
I know this is all the emotional side of letting go of a long association with the college, the faculty, the students. Meanwhile, the way is eased by the farewell gatherings, gifts, and kind words.
I received two books that I will treasure. One contains entries from faculty--kind words, thanks, and expressions of appreciation and love. The other contains entries from students. Some repeated stories I told in class that made an impression, some thanked me for the website I maintained over the years for their reference and use, and others commented on re-listening to tapes of my lectures (I say that's sick). All were kind, respectful, and caring. It tell me that I did good.
Next week, I work four days. Then I go back one day after the holiday break. I expect that by then the reality will have hit me, and I might not want to go--but I will.